How are you? Good, right. I know that because I have been watching you. I know it's been a while since we last touched base but I'm doing alright. You probably didn't think I cared anymore, but I got the letters, text and voicemails---I miss you too.
And that's why I'm writing to you today. Architectural Engineering you're an unbelievable force, even through the incessant attempts to corrupt you (I heard they tried to associate you with construction...I can't believe it either). But you weather the public scrutiny with all the unparallel grace. At one time we shared the same pulse. I was you and you were me. But sweetheart lately our heartbeats have been out of synch.
I hear what you're saying...I said we were going to be together. But all some things must come to an end. The time we spent together made me the man I am today. Remember our first vacation in Nashville for the engineering summer camp? That was fun right. And then the hours we spent together at TSU in that building for 2 years....well this letters roots start there, but I digress.
The point is you gave me some of the moments that no other craft could give me. But it's over love. There's no need to play the movie of our time together and try to figure out where we went wrong. I know you abhor clichés but...well..."it's not you. It's me".
Calm down, calm down. Let me finish. You're right. There is someone else. She lives down the street. I know it's the last person you wanted to see me with, but I'm with Psychology now. Babe, you had to see this coming. You knew I was seeing her for the past two years.
I know what you are thinking. It's not the money. I was there in the trenches of undervalued contributions with you practically my whole life. I gave up many nights for you. But, Psych wouldn't relinquish its hold on my heart strings.
Yes, the sessions are nice. And it feels good to be acknowledged and praised for the work that you do. AE, what we had was good but that was something you could never provide me with.
But more importantly, I’m with her now because she gives the chance to change more lives. How? I know I didn't think so before either, but AE you're power is limited to what a person persieves of you. No, I’m not saying she is better than you...just different.
But even after I'm gone you'll be there. Everything you taught me will be forever nestled in my consciousness. When I'm at my oak wood desk down the street I will think of you. The eraser residue...hand cramps....and man will I miss the pencil led residue on the side of my hand.
I love you, but from here on out I have to breathe the same air that Psych breathes into me.
True enough I'll miss the curves of truth along with the euphoric gazes that came as I signed on what we both tabbed as a masterpiece.
Thank you for the opportunities. Thank you for the awards. Thank you for giving me a place in the world to carve my name. AE. Thank you for the love.
If I can borrow from Jay
""Listen hear AE. I just believe this is the right thing to do baby. I got a brand new love, Psych, that's showing me a lot of action right now. I mean I know you put me on my feet and all, but I mean...you got to let me grow. It's time for me you to let me go baby....you gotta let me go.
Forever yours (even from afar),
Hen
P.S. Before you go around telling people that I just used you, I want to let you I really did care for you. True, I have been posturing myself to be with Psych for a while but I never did that at your expense. Remember that. Don't be suprised if you look out your window and hear "Harold Melvin and the Bluenotes "I Miss You" playing one day.